In other news

Pita Pit + Coke = probably the best lunch ever

Also, I like to think I've grown up some over the last 3 years.

Not much else to do

I'm taking amazing classes. I have amazing professors. I have an amazing opportunity to go to an amazing school. I'm the president of an amazing club that has the potential to do amazing things. I have an amazing job. I work for an amazing professor in an amazing department. I go to amazing potlucks, meetings, mass bike rides, and book clubs.

But so much of me feels so unfulfilled because of my inability to connect with other people.

Being alone somehow far outweighs all of the amazing things.

I'm not entirely sure how I'm supposed to feel about certain things anymore.

I'm not entirely sure how to feel anymore.

Good things

So after crying in a McDonald's bathroom in Orem after walking 5 blocks in knee-deep snow only to miss the bus back to Provo and possibly miss a class, all of which was made 100x worse because I was freezing and my shoes were filled with snow and water, I decided that was quite possibly the most miserable I've been in a long time.

Weather has a pretty intense effect on my mood.

But I'm not going to let this snow win. This wet, cold, God's curse that covers the Earth will not win.

Things which make me very happy right now:
-The fact that all of my classes are really, really awesome. I feel like I'm going to learn so much more this semester than just how to make an A in a class.
-Turns out a grade in one of my classes was wrong, bumping my overall grade in that class from a B+ to an A-.
-My coat keeps at least my upper half very warm.
-Heaters and blankets
-I have so many ideas for the vegetarian club. I feel like we'll accomplish a lot this semester.

4 more months

Things I associate with Fort Worth, Texas: home, family, best friend, warm, comfortable, familiar

Things I associate with Provo, Utah: lonely, stressed out, superficial relationships, cold, shy, awkward